don't I deserve happiness?
don't I deserve to be heard?
don't I deserve a happy ending?
don't I deserve at least 1 blissful relationship in my life?

we used to be able to listen to each other..
we used to not fight about every little thing..

u used to never judge me n take me for granted..
so what's changed?

I thought people will be even more in love when they get to the next step...
but here I am writing about how things change when we've gotten more serious...

what's changed?

I've loved u even more... but the more I love him... the more I get hurt...
Why is it that every little thing that his family says will always be a subject for him to be suddenly dissatisfied with me...
I for certain didn't let any of that get in the way...

Is it so wrong to expect him to put me first?

Is this the fate of every girl out there who loves her man?
Why does it seem like the more I love him and need him... the more he seems to get sick of me...

I thought he's different...
Have I thought wrong?
My faith in him is.... I don't know...

I'm just so.....tired.....of trying to make him see what's bothering me...
How can I tell him when everything I said is always taken wrongly?
I said 1 thing n he takes it wrongly... n not only that, get pissed at me
I mean really... how am I supposed to discuss or talk things through with someone who flat out refused to listen to and understand me?
He used to think the best of me... He always think positive things about me... n now... its like everything I do is always so negative in his eyes...

I don't want a man who's sick of me... whether he realized or didn't realize it...

I loved him so... but he hurts me so too...
Is this my karma?